How the expectations of doing more while making less. The benefits of it all.

So I have been told that my status of making no profit at all through my hobby could get me into trouble. Well, sure if you have a understanding and a dream. You can make it work. 

I have been negatively told repeatedly the answer is NO. You are never good enough, you are not qualified enough and so on. 

There are so many people that will directly tell you NO  without any consideration of a chance to give you the benefit of a doubt or believe in you with what you are doing. And well you are going to have to prove them wrong. Just push hard as much as you can.
It’s easier to just give up because others don’t believe in you. Even if you fail, you keep pushing and say to yourself YES  YOU CAN! Do it because anything is possible. Believe and hustle is the truth to set yourself for success even if you don’t see it. Believe that things are possible to fight for continuous and rejections come with the territory.
But that keeps you going. The fuel, the fight and determination that there are people who believe in your dreams, possiblities, and sometimes your marketability! Even if you are exhausted by the end of the day. You’ll have to win. Cause it’s only you that can believe in the possibilities of your future. No one else’s, yours and yours alone. 

Sure there are others who are close who care of your well being, but if you look closely they are the ones who are the naysayers of negative to keep you stuck in a loop.

Attempt but keep stability. 

Believe in what you are passionate about but keep the familiar around. Just in case that doesn’t go well, you need to stay around familiar territory.

Faulter because learning mistakes can help you figure out where you’d like to be and the faults can take shape into making you stronger.

Chase run those doors down in and around because one of those doors or opportunities could be the one thing that could be helpful in the very long run.

Drive and pursuing/persuits/persistence can and will pay off if you keep trying even if persecution will comes its way.

At the end of the day you know what works and doesn’t work in the Avenues you are searching for but will help to figure out who you are and who you want to be.
The truth is yourself is who you can please. Not others. Others come later when you reach that goal you’ve continuously been chasing it against sometimes against all odds.
The benefits of this all leads to a happier self and self-awreness of the person you are constantly progressing internally and externally.


Below Her Mouth Review


As an avid movie and entertainment watched I’ve seen my fair share of the entertainments take on love, sex and intimacy connections between characters and actors. Some feel like they are scripted to be in a way that the connections was supposed to happen like that. But I barely see where there is a connection by chance and pushing the boundaries that is a rarety to find in main stream media.
In my opinion this is one of those movies where I thought there may be the predictable characters could live with their choices on who they wanted or expected to be with. This movie is a real better take on LGBTQ entertainment story lines I’ve seen in a very long time portrayed in theaters, yet alone in the arts world.

I was taken back that where you thought of two characters love affair for a time would be just settle on a straight lady named Jasmine who is engaged to a man named Rile who takes care of finances monetary wise and leaves for a business meeting. 

Jasmine has a lot of spare time after her fiance leaves. She wakes up, gets her robe on and sees a roofer named Dallas working on the rooftop. I feel like she gets turned on and decides to take a bath. As her thought process goes through running water she takes her time getting into the tub. She feels sensual and decides to sit up in the tub and have her vagina pleasured under the water, we see her enjoyment of the feeling and pleasure. 

Throughout the story line we see the void of the characters love through their sex, love and intimacy connections that both Dallas and Jasmine both deal with.

From their first meeting in the bar and girl party. To their growth of their sexy love connection they have in this movie. You’d think that this story would be plutonic story line of predictability where the straight woman would go back to her male partner, she tries to make it work. 

Once she had sexy and foreplay time it became harder for her to have the feeling of a man fucking her. She kept wanting more pleasure from Dallas and the feelings could not stay away because of their connection, kissing, sex, foreplay and intimacy she has emotionally to her. Even when her fiancée catches her in the bathtub with Dallas having a strap on having anal sex. He looked shocked and displeased by his fiancée’s cheating, she runs after him and leaves Dallas in the bathtub with shock.

We learn that the ultimatum was a temporary break up for a bit with the love connection Jasmine shares with Riley and Dallas, there is some emotional brokenness of her really wanting what she wanted and making things work.

We learn that Jasmine is the emotional effect between Dallas and Riley but realizes in the end of the movie her true choice of love and not feel distant to just live in a straight relationship like other storylines and trying to make it work just because, this movie proves otherwise.

Sensation, love, connections, sex, foreplay, intimacy and relationship is always predictable of choice of how you deal with your love life. Also this story and movie displays of how your body in a physical and intimate sensations of what you are pleased with in every sense and what feels right.

This movie isn’t told that often of not just the LGBTQ but also the love relationships of who you Love. This is one movie and entertainment wise in my opinion doesn’t end with tragedy, predictability and common story lines of how it has been told relationship wise in previous storytelling that is constantly told.

To me this story line and telling defined what I expected of interconnectioness of relationship of intimacy, love, sex, emotional states more than I expected.
I rate this movie 9.5/10 because I would write a story line and story telling similar to this because this topic is something I would like to cover myself but minus the shock of a partner catching their significant other cheating of how you’d like to treat your body relationship, love, sex and intimacy connections.

Thank you Stephanie Fabrizi, Melissa Coghlan, Serendipity, Distant Horizon Films, Telefilm, April Mullen and the all female crew for bringing this to light.

Con Season: Tri-Con Kitchener

Back in January I had the fortunate luck to cover Tri-Con a small comicon about a hour away outside from Toronto where communities are brought together to celebrate fandom on a intimate yet cool geek level. This con is small but brings people together. I saw some real awesome cosplays of family without the rush and bustle of the bigger cons I attend to. I was joined by my camera man Michael who took video of the everything.

The Con brought some aweawesomeness of community! 

As media I got to meet some real awesome vendors and cosplayers. Also meeting Tamsen and Thom from Killjoys was a extra super bonus. For now, there are these great pics. 

I have some footage, which I will share later on through YouTube and Instagram which will be linked in a later post.

I LOVE to thank Robyn Chung and everyone at Tri Con in Kitchener-Waterloo for my media passes. You guys and ladies rock!

Hope to see you next year Tri-Con.

Battling the cold

All this week I have been battling with my voice cracking, my nose all clogged up and looking exhausted.

 I have been fighting it so I can make it out alive which I have been doing. I won’t let it get it the better of me. I have been working and trying to get rid of things although it hasn’t been easy to do so. I know I should be resting although feeling like utter crap internally. So all the other things have taken a back seat.

I finally have some Neo Citrian and some nasal congestion spray to help me out with this crappy weather change from cold to warm weather. My body can’t take it, but I am forcing it to. 

Regardless I will go to work and finish things finally throughout this week. Plus my blog from Tri-Con will be up as soon as I can sort things out. 

Here’s to hoping to get better in a hurry.

Late night, early morning thoughts

​Up with these thoughts in my mind 

5am in this room away from home

Processes invade me

Thirst of a carbonated drink and 

Water pressures me to get up 

Write it all down

Sleep escapes me

This morning in the downtown 

Core that is the city of Toronto.
Home away from home

Alas the overnight random 

Awakening drives me

To cause and effect 

These thoughts of getting up 

Staying awake 

At a weird hour that invades 

Me to get up to be out of bed

To flush my system of words 

Out of my body and soul 

That hungers me 

For the pressures of many 

Things that lingers 

Internally and externally to not 

Wanting to escape away from me.
No complaints.


The scent of you haunts me

Like the scent of you lingers in my

Memory, heart and in my soul.

I’d close my eyes and I have the thought

Of you running through my veins

I wake up and have my eyes opened wide

With the thought of your energy

Tingle through my arms, body, heart

And soul

I feel alive when I’m around you

Your energy livens my spirits up

And matches mine 

Instead of spreading

Only my energy onto others

You share my energy, spirit and soul.

I smile of the prospects of you

Totally understanding my curiosity

Of being energetic and

Appreciative of your human soul

Breaks into mine like wildfire

Lights me up

I feel like I need you more and more

I’m temp by your charm, spirit 

And energetic personality that 

Has caused a spark like I’ve never been 

Able to match until now

You make me feel alive and

Make me feel unpredictably hungry

That I want more and secretly want to

Kill my curiosity by feeling what 

You taste is truly like endlessly

I want to drive you and keep you 

There for many hours

Or even days by my side constantly.

Your excitement

Seduces of mischievous ways

And the mystery that lays inside

You internally and externally!

Survival Tips For The Holiday Season: Shopping Shoppers Edition

So it’s the holiday season and you’re shopping. Here is some tips as a shopper.

Attention Shoppers

  • Be patient shopping !!!! I can’t re-irreriate that. Workers and cashier’s are busy. Lines and things ARE NOT going to go faster for you so if you are in a hurry, plan ahead and accordingly.
  • Where you shop is not your house or a mess place to feel obligated to be messy. Most of you are savages when you tear things apart. It may not be your obligation to may be clean there but be considerate to staff. There is so much they can do in one day. 
  • Be patient with staff and workers. We are not sorry you are stressed or having such a shitty day because you didn’t get what you needed, products are not just yours but other shopper present list to. Don’t take your stress or issues on staff, they have nothing to do with your problems or issues
  • Cutting the line or things you may forgot is NOT going to go faster for you because it’s a process. There are steps workers whether sales associates, managers and cashier’s have to do with policies. They can’t speed up the process for you cause you just want it to or want it your own way. There is a process and things can’t magically happen.
  • Try to budget. I know that is easier said than done, but try so you don’t fall into debt.
  • Shop earlier than Christmas, then shop later in the new year so you get your product you want or need. So you later don’t regret that you didn’t get it.
  • Try to come early and shop or save your items until the next day or you lose out.
  • Road rage is stupid. Parking may be difficult but fuck you and your angry attitude. 
  • Bring some snacks if you are in the mall. Stay hydrated and stay full.
  • Being angry is USELESS!!!!! What is the point?!?!?!
  • Your rage can translate to the staff because of your attitude is shitty. No wonder why staff doesn’t want to be around you because of your shitty behavior

    Now if you shop, behave accordingly or don’t shop at all or plan the list and cross it out as you go along.